divided

There are too many places where pieces, even tiny tidbits, of my heart lie. There are too many people, too many dreams, too many endeavors, too many loves tugging at my heart. It's just a time in my life where it doesn't feel possible to devote enough of my love to one big thing, besides my family and Gospel.

I love him. But I care for others. Other people, other dreams, other adventures, other...stuff.

But I'm not really sure how to let go...do I have to? Should I? Is that the right thing to do? Or is it okay to hold him close by, like a much-priced possession, while I do other things and continue to give my heart to other things as well?

With all of this stretching and straining, I may just end up busting this heart.